tearful

I’m a bit teary today, I was yesterday too. I’m not sure whether this is the last wave of emotion surrounding the events of the past year as I come towards leaving working for the church. I am aware that I could create an opportunity to reconcile and I don’t know whether to take it. Is it best to let it lie, or should I try and do what would be really difficult for me and ask the questions I have and share how hard it has been for me. I’m not sure that I’m strong enough to meet with them again, but I know if I do it will be a learning experience.

I’m also a tad lonely. This seems a bit daft, hubby has only been away three days! But I miss having him to talk to. Talking out these things often helps me cope with my emotions. Instead I feel like they are controlling me. I nearly started crying in a planning meeting last night! Talking on the phone isn’t the same, and he’s usually distracted by what’s going on around him. He’ll be home in four days, and the weekends plans of baking a birthday cake for my dad and then sharing a family meal to celebrate are bound to cheer me up again!