this week

I’m an introvert, and after quite a few quiet weeks where I’ve been enjoying my own company, this week I’ve been out and about lots meeting with lots of different people. It has been draining - physically and emotionally. I’ve found I’ve needed my sleep again, and on a couple of days I’ve had afternoon naps. I’ve always found these essential to keep me going when work is busy. (How I will cope moving to work in an office and having set hours I don’t know! I’ll have to adapt somehow.)

I’ve been really frustrated with myself this week as I seem to be questioning myself lots, especially after meeting with people, and the way I’ve been feeling about myself has declined day be day. I’m really glad of my afternoon and evening in this evening to blog, journal, relax and re-energise. I’m wondering whether it is possible to change the way I’ve been this week, or whether it is just part of me and I need to accept it or adapt. I feel like I’ve been battling this one for years and haven’t really got very far. Does anyone else tell the voice in their head to shut-up frequently? (I can be heard going around the house saying shhh out loud to myself.) So today I’m wondering whether I just need to not plan so many meetings in one week and recognise my need for ‘me’ time to re-charge and love myself again.