My first assignment is in the post!!!!!!! It feels rather strange, and I just hope I’ve done alright. Hubby even said it was interesting when he read it through for me! Got a week before my next mailing arrives with the next batch of work – I haven’t finished the last one yet!
I’ve had a good evening, with only one of the people I’ve tried to ring being out! It’s taken me three weeks and five or six tries to get through to one of them!
Haven’t a clue what I’m going to do for a day off tomorrow, Hubby has been away all weekend, and we’ve been so busy today, we haven’t had time to talk about it yet! I reckon a day out on the tandem would do us good, but taking my brother swimming might be a better use of our time. He’s driving my parents mad at home, and any pressure we can take off them the better.
Thankfully I have a good idea of what I’m doing for my quiet day this week. Depending on whether I have the car or not, it will be Edenbridge (by car) or Brighton (by train!). After a good chat with my soul friend this afternoon, I even know how I’m going to spend my time. This is always a plus, as otherwise I just waste the time. I need a focus in order to help me spend time with God. The focus this week will be on God’s love for me. Sounds obvious, but I want to explore the feelings I felt yesterday at the evening service. The words ‘embrace you, Jesus, embrace you’ were not words I wanted to sing. I wanted God to embrace me, to hold me, to place his hands on me. Rembrandts picture of the Prodigal Son came to mind, with the Father’s hands on the son. It’s all I could focus on all through the service. Our youth meeting afterwards focussed on the Father, Romans 8v15 sticking out like a sore thumb. I need to receive God’s love for me, here and now. I look forward to spending time with my Father, but there is also fear of him not meeting with me. But I know that it is much more likely that I will stop myself from receiving his love, rather than him not give it. Receiving love isn’t always easy.
BUT right now, I have a meeting to be getting along to!